It amazes me how much I’ve changed in the last months and years, I’ve turned into a teenager. Things I never thought I would go trough, feelings, experiences.
When I was a child, a mid age child, I used to like a boy, I guess I wont say his name, because it doesn’t really matters, but I have been thinking that if he was here, I would still like him, and probably he will never like me, but that doesn’t matters because he won’t come back, so it is completely fine.
I used to play a lot, I had no fears, dressed myself beautifully according to mom, and most of the time, I did not care about my look.
Then, when I started 7th grade, It all changed, the clothes, the phone, the boys, the music taste, but most importantly, I changed to a complete different person, caring on peoples opinions and feeling like a complete fool and ugly thing.
Since 7th I’ve been feeling attracted by the same boy, and never been able to talk to him, because it is
Probably the most scary thing in the world for me.
I’ve experienced fights with my best friends, some of them reconcilable some not and can never be.
Sometimes, I just hate being a “teenager” sometimes, I truly like it, It is never the same, and It is part of being a teenager.
Maybe I'll add photos later,I promise you'll notice it.
xx